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swedeace
06-03-2005, 06:18 PM
I have become quite interested in the types of anxiety disorders. I have felt some of these symptoms badly, and they get to a point where they are so unbearable for me. I, therefore, cannot stand myself at times. I'd like to research more in order to know whether or not I should look into further help or therapy.

I just want to know if anyone else has helpful info OR even has an anxiety disorder they'd like to share? Like stories, how you recognized when to get help, how you're dealing today, etc. If you take drugs or just go to therapy, etc. You can either PM me in private or post here. It doesn't matter to me. There is just so much for me to share that I want to know what is and isn't helpful out there.

Thanks again for any suggestions. :wave:

*MIBabe03*
06-03-2005, 06:27 PM
I'm sorry that you're feeling that way. I started having anxiety attacks in September. I didn't know what was wrong, and for me I thought I was dying or having a heart attack. I went to therapy and my doctor also prescribed Xanax. Soon after that we found out that I was Diabetic. I had to go to this all day class, where they give you information about being Diabetic. They said that when your sugars are out of whack, that it throws everything off and heightens depression and anxiety. Since then, I've gotten my sugars under control, and I have not had an anxiety attack at all. I've also gotten myself slowly off the Xanax, thanks to my doctor. I doubt that you have Diabetes, but I believe that was my problem. I know there are others on this board who have this problem too, just remember that you're not alone.

Hollow
06-03-2005, 07:54 PM
social anxiety is awful. it interferes with my life.

*Pleasant Tomorrow*
06-03-2005, 08:42 PM
I have social anxiety. I bet people think I'm an ******* because I seem like I'm ignoring them when in fact it's just because I'm scared pitless of them.

AllIWantIsYourClutch
06-03-2005, 09:20 PM
Yeah I actually really realized I had a problem like this last night...I was at a friend's house and I started feeling really uncomfortable and I had to leave and I got in my car and had like a breakdown...It was weird. I think I need some kind of medication or something...

C Doody
06-03-2005, 09:31 PM
I Have Social Anxiety. I Get nervous when people I'm Not comfortable with talk to me, And If I'm At like a store or something and See someone I Know, I Always pretend like I Can't see them. It really is a pain, And its been making me miserable lately.

rusyd
06-03-2005, 10:13 PM
I have been suffering w anxiety most of my life. When I was younger I didn't know what it was. It can be very hard to deal with alone.There are meds like Zanax or Buspar that treat symptoms or through therapy. I take Valerian Root which is over the counter and helps me when I have anxiety attacks. Also many anti-depressants can help w anxiety disorders. Good luck w everything. :)

marmalade
06-03-2005, 11:26 PM
I used to take Valerian Root, but the last two times I took it, the crying and nervousness got worse.
Now, I use Lexapro, and I’m feeling much better.

swedeace
06-04-2005, 01:50 AM
Thank you all for sharing. It is much appreciated, as it helps with ideas. *group hug*

I fear that I might fall under having General Anxiety Disorder. The following symtoms are what I cannot escape from:

-irrational behavior
-anxiety
-OVER-analyzing
-shy
-having NO problem getting up in front of huge groups of people but have SO much trouble approaching small groups or even individual people
-cannot open up to ULTRA personal feelings, thoughts, and emotions to family for fear of being judged (funny thing is I KNOW they're not judging me but still can't escape the belief)
-fear of people - I fear people SO much it's not funny. I'm always feeling like I have to walk on eggshells, especially towards people I really care about, thinking I will drive them away and they'll never-ever talk to me again.

I found this website that lists some types of anxiety:
Avoidant Personality Disorder: Chronic and longstanding fear of negative evaluation and tendency to avoid interpersonal situations without a guarantee of acceptance and support, accompanied by significant fears of embarrassment and shame in social interaction.
Attribution Style: How people assign causality for behavior and events.
Extroversion: A personal preference for socially engaging activities and settings.
Introversion: A personal preference for solitary, non-social activities and settings.
Shy Extrovert: A person who performs well socially, but experiences painful thoughts and feelings.
Self-complexity: holding many different views of the self rather than a narrow conception.
Social Fitness: Desired general state of wellness in which the degree of social participation is determined by personal preference rather than by discomfort and fears of negative evaluation. Social Fitness assumes a proactive orientation, adaptive functioning, social empathy, and responsivity to people and social stimuli.
Social Fitness Model: Education and training in adaptive social behavior, thinking patterns, and emotional states.
Social Anxiety Disorder: A DSM-lV diagnostic category defined as persistent avoidance and or discomfort in social situations that significantly interferes with functioning.
http://www.shyness.com/encyclopedia.html

I feel that I have experience some of these symptoms.

To everyone who posted and maybe others who haven't yet (except Desperate_Fan03, since (s)he posted): How were you all able to come to realize your anxiety was getting to the point where it had to be officially diagnosed?

Also, what forms of therapy are there? Are there private or group exercises? Is it just a sit-down and talk about your feelings session? I am just full of questions. Sorry about that, guys.

dawsongirl
06-04-2005, 01:50 AM
I have GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder). I'm sure I've talked about this before on here, but I'll do it again. :)

I went off to a college 2 hours away from home. I'm an only child and very attached to my family, so even though it was my decision, I ended up really regretting it. For the first week I was there, I hardly ate I was so depressed and scared. My parents even came up and saw a councelor with me (which was actually no help at all). And then I had a roommate who turned out to be from Hell. It was a tough year and I think deep down, it affected me worse than I imagined.

I transfered and was happier until one day I got the flu or something while I was in class, and after a trip to the ER, after that, I became really scared to go back to class for fear I'd get sick again. That was Nov. 1999 and I didn't do anything about it until April 2002. It got worse and worse and worse. It came to, literally, I would stand outside the room where I was to have another class, and I would freeze. I'd tell myself to go in, but then fear would overtake me and I couldn't move. I was afraid of getting trapped in there and not being able to get out. I'd wait (purposely) until the class started and it was too late to go in, and then I'd leave. I skipped SO MUCH class that way. I couldn't just go home because then I'd have to make an excuse to tell my dad why I wasn't at class, so I'd hang out in the library, hiding.

Finally iy got to the point where I was failing and lying and having a breakdown about everyday. I'd cry for no reason. My mom took me to the doctor, he put me on Paxil, and I've been better ever since. My first whole semester after I went on Paxil, I hardly ever skipped class. I still occasionally get panic attacks, but they're rare. I can actually go to work not feeling perfect and I stay all day without worrying. It saved my sanity.

Granted I still get depressed, but a lot of that I bring on myself because I just do not understand humans and men.

dawsongirl
06-04-2005, 01:54 AM
-OVER-analyzing

-having NO problem getting up in front of huge groups of people but have SO much trouble approaching small groups or even individual people

Also, what forms of therapy are there? Are there private or group exercises? Is it just a sit-down and talk about your feelings session? I am just full of questions. Sorry about that, guys.

Questions are good. :) Helps you realize you're not alone in feeling the way you do.

I over analyzed EVERYTHING! I'd always see 19474532784 ways a situation would come out and most of them were bad, so I'd avoid it altogether.

lol...I'm the opposite. I used to be able to act in plays and give speeches, but now that terrifies me. :lol: But now I can pick up a phone and call someone which I could NEVER do before.

I'm not in therapy, but I think you could have group or individual. Which ever you'd be more comfy with.

dawsongirl
06-04-2005, 02:27 AM
Yeah I actually really realized I had a problem like this last night...I was at a friend's house and I started feeling really uncomfortable and I had to leave and I got in my car and had like a breakdown...It was weird. I think I need some kind of medication or something...

If it goes on (or has been going on for, I think they say 6 months), see your doctor about it. They may prescribe something or refer you to a therapist. You shouldn't have to go though feeling like that. It's awful.

The key is (and this is for everybody), you have to be honest with them. You can't go in there and say "I'm fine" or make up stories. Even if it's embarrassing, they have to know exactly how you feel or you'll never get better.

vienna waits
06-04-2005, 02:43 AM
Does not being able to breathe when you have to talk in front of the class mean anything? I also freak out when we do things in class where we go around the room and everyone says something. When I make phone calls I sometimes lose my breath too. I'll be fine and then I think about it and start to freak out. I'm also EXTREMELY jumpy. Like I could be sitting in my room and if I hear a door open loudly I'll jump. I can be caught off guard so easily so that the simplest shoulder tap could scare the crap out of me.

dawsongirl
06-04-2005, 02:51 AM
Does not being able to breathe when you have to talk in front of the class mean anything? I also freak out when we do things in class where we go around the room and everyone says something. When I make phone calls I sometimes lose my breath too. I'll be fine and then I think about it and start to freak out. I'm also EXTREMELY jumpy. Like I could be sitting in my room and if I hear a door open loudly I'll jump. I can be caught off guard so easily so that the simplest shoulder tap could scare the crap out of me.

Sounds like an anxiety attack, especially if it happens every time you do those things. I know how that is making phone calls. I hate the phone.

Living In a '70's Dream
06-04-2005, 04:37 AM
I have social anxiety; and last night I went to this bar, and it was a HORRIBLE experience for me. I felt totally uncomfortable. And I am sure that all the regular patrons thought of I as being a stuck up bitch, but I could not relax!
I tried to be friendly, but men just looked at me like I was this alien or weirdo, when I am not..I just have a hell of a time trying to interact with other people...It became unbearable when after being at this place for an hour I had to leave because all of a sudden I had this terrible anxiety attack and I almost passed out while I was walking to my car...This sucks for I am an attractive and intelligent person who wants to be normal and meet new people, but it is very very difficult :(

Hollow
06-04-2005, 05:15 AM
I used to take Valerian Root, but the last two times I took it, the crying and nervousness got worse.
Now, I use Lexapro, and I’m feeling much better.
i'm on lexapro too (for depression) but it doesn't help my anxiety.

*MIBabe03*
06-04-2005, 09:19 AM
i'm on lexapro too (for depression) but it doesn't help my anxiety.

Yeah, Lexapro helps with my depression, but it didn't do anything for my anxiety. That's why the doctor had me on Xanax for awhile.

Pus$y Galore
06-04-2005, 09:28 AM
Wow - I really feel badly for you guys getting these feelings. Even though I've been through chronic depression, I (luckily) never really suffered from anxiety like you. If anything, I'm probably one of those people you'd hate because I'll start a conversation with anyone (I used to be a lot more shy, but not so much anymore). I would go into giggling fits whenever we had to do school public speaking and would embarrass myself then. I found taking Theatre Arts in high school REALLY helped get more over being in front of groups - large and small. It's helped me for the rest of my life get over the fear.
My husband gets anxiety though - and thanks to DawsonGirl for providing that list - I can see him in it for sure. The crazy thing is that everyone LOVES him - he's a great guy! Its probably the same for you guys too - you don't even realize that people AREN'T judging you (but of course, this is why its irrational).

From what I've seen of you all here, you have nothing to be ashamed of - you're all intelligent, witty people with a lot to offer this world! I hope you all find the best method of being able to cope - and it might not look like it now, but these things don't last forever. Big hug to you all! :bighug:

Courtnee
06-04-2005, 09:52 AM
Yeah,I have it too.I was in choir one time and we were singing and right in the middle of the song i started panicing.

marmalade
06-04-2005, 10:51 AM
i'm on lexapro too (for depression) but it doesn't help my anxiety.

My anxiety isn’t completely gone, it’s just that I feel a lot better, and am able to deal with things better.
For instance, I can usually make a phone call now, without feeling like I’m going to have a heart attack.
But I still avoid certain situations when possible, like crowds. I don’t see any need in asking for trouble.

Pentimento
06-04-2005, 11:12 AM
I hope you all find the best method of being able to cope - and it might not look like it now, but these things don't last forever. That might be true for most, and I sincerely hope everyone here who's suffering finds a way to get better, but the truth is that for some people it does last forever. There are those for whom medication (or any other method of treatment) does absolutely no good. All they can do is try to adapt to the circumstances. Being told that it will get better, when a lifetime of experience has proved otherwise, has a tendency to make it even worse.

Kay Scarpetta
06-04-2005, 11:40 AM
I have Social Anxiety Disorder and I have mild, mild Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. SAD is a freaking bitch to live with. I have very bad panic attacks, and back in February I had one so bad in school, that I passed out and they had to call 911. Then they took me to the hospital and sedated me.

I'm on Lexapro for Anxiety/Depression and it helps with the latter, but not for Anxiety. My shrinks won't give me Xanax or Valium though, considering my past with addictions.

TheHappyBurgerMeister
06-04-2005, 02:14 PM
I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder 5 or 6 (or more) years ago. I actually didn't know I had THAT particular disorder until a few months ago. I knew I had anxiety but I didn't know it was called that and my mom just said I had that. I just said I had "bad anxiety" but didn't know it had a name.

Anyways, instead of Social anxiety where you get really nervous and whatever around people or social situations, but with GAD you just get nervous or worry in general. Like I could be just alone in my house with no one around I'll start worrying or get nervous about upcoming things in my life.

I do have a little bit of SAD with it do, because there are times when I'm around a lot of people where I get panicky and just want to LEAVE! I am NOT currently taking any medication for it and I have doing fine without it. I'll occasionally have my moments, but it's alright. It was a little over a year ago when my parents and the psych convinced me to go off of the medication because they thought I was going fine (I was only on 25 mils anyway, which is barely anything). I was on Zoloft for 4 years before that.

rusyd
06-04-2005, 02:18 PM
I take Valerian Root because I don't want to be on a daily med since I already take daily meds for BP and high cholesterol. Thanks to my family genes. I do think from time to time about getting on something mild for my depression and anxiety, but I try to tough it out. Maybye that is not the best thing, but I have been suffering w this since I was 15 or so and I am now going on 42,so I guess I have learned to adapt.

Pus$y Galore
06-04-2005, 02:44 PM
That might be true for most, and I sincerely hope everyone here who's suffering finds a way to get better, but the truth is that for some people it does last forever. There are those for whom medication (or any other method of treatment) does absolutely no good. All they can do is try to adapt to the circumstances. Being told that it will get better, when a lifetime of experience has proved otherwise, has a tendency to make it even worse.


There IS hope! I was 15 when my depression first hit. There were no such things as drugs back then (1976) AT ALL - it was shock treatment and lobotomies (sp?). These drugs are all very new - they came a LONG way in 20 years. When it hit me again at 34 I was put on Prozac (only a couple of years after it came on the market) along with therapy. Within a couple of years I was much better and the therapy more than anything, taught me the skills to overcome the worst of it (although you can't control the chemical imbalance, you can learn to control other aspects).

I'm sure more drugs are being developed every day - what doesn't work for some, might work for others. People need to keep working at it - don't EVER give up. Also, they've come a long way on mapping the brain. I can see in another 20 years, surgical treatments (and not lobotomies) that will help.

Medical science is progressing at an incredible rate so I DO believe in hope and saying there isn't is b.s. - along with "making it worse" to encourage people - sorry - but imo, that's not true - maybe in your case only - and that's sad. (Unless you're quite young, in which case I can see you thinking its a lifetime of hell - but it won't be - only if you give up).

Pus$y Galore
06-04-2005, 02:53 PM
I have Social Anxiety Disorder and I have mild, mild Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. SAD is a freaking bitch to live with. I have very bad panic attacks, and back in February I had one so bad in school, that I passed out and they had to call 911. Then they took me to the hospital and sedated me.

I'm on Lexapro for Anxiety/Depression and it helps with the latter, but not for Anxiety. My shrinks won't give me Xanax or Valium though, considering my past with addictions.


My mother and brother were on Valium and it sucked. It only made it go away temporarily and makes you sleepy. Basically I found all it did was make you sleepy so you'd sleep through your anxiety or depression.

Yeah, I've got SAD too and boy are winters a drag! I've often thought I should live in Arizona or something to get more light. Vitamin A & D might help - and they've now got the lights for home use (although they're probably expensive). Most days are a fight just to get out of bed.
I feel bad for people with OCD. Dr. Phil had a girl on recently who has a really bad case of it.

Again, I feel that in the years to come, more medicines and treatments will be developed to help you out. Hang in there Karly! ;)

Pentimento
06-04-2005, 04:43 PM
There IS hope! I was 15 when my depression first hit. There were no such things as drugs back then (1976) AT ALL - it was shock treatment and lobotomies (sp?). These drugs are all very new - they came a LONG way in 20 years. When it hit me again at 34 I was put on Prozac (only a couple of years after it came on the market) along with therapy. Within a couple of years I was much better and the therapy more than anything, taught me the skills to overcome the worst of it (although you can't control the chemical imbalance, you can learn to control other aspects).

I'm sure more drugs are being developed every day - what doesn't work for some, might work for others. People need to keep working at it - don't EVER give up. Also, they've come a long way on mapping the brain. I can see in another 20 years, surgical treatments (and not lobotomies) that will help.

Medical science is progressing at an incredible rate so I DO believe in hope and saying there isn't is b.s. - along with "making it worse" to encourage people - sorry - but imo, that's not true - maybe in your case only - and that's sad. (Unless you're quite young, in which case I can see you thinking its a lifetime of hell - but it won't be - only if you give up).
I never said there's no hope. I said that drugs and other treatments don't cure everyone. They don't. Maybe at some point in the future they will, and that would be great, but the truth is that here in the real world and at the present time, not everyone can get better. And saying to those people something as simplistic and ill-informed as "things CAN get better" when a lifetime (of any duration) of experience has taught them otherwise implies failure on their part, and it DOES tend to make them feel worse about themselves and their situation.

Adjusting to your reality and making the best of what life has given you is not the same as giving up hope. If, for instance, a person has been living with depression, anxiety and/or other "disorders" (for lack of a less pejorative label) and has been subjected to countless so-called remedies over a period of decades to no avail and sometimes with near-fatal results, how can finally accepting facts and learning to live life as well as possible be considered giving up hope? Saying "Life sucks, poor me, today I'm finally going to cut my own f***ing throat..." -- THAT is giving up hope. See the difference? Probably not. Never mind. It's not something worth arguing about. People get it or they don't.

Pus$y Galore
06-04-2005, 04:55 PM
I never said there's no hope. I said that drugs and other treatments don't cure everyone. They don't. Maybe at some point in the future they will, and that would be great, but the truth is that here in the real world and at the present time, not everyone can get better. And saying to those people something as simplistic and ill-informed as "things CAN get better" when a lifetime (of any duration) of experience has taught them otherwise implies failure on their part, and it DOES tend to make them feel worse about themselves and their situation.

Adjusting to your reality and making the best of what life has given you is not the same as giving up hope. If, for instance, a person has been living with depression, anxiety and/or other "disorders" (for lack of a less pejorative label) and has been subjected to countless so-called remedies over a period of decades to no avail and sometimes with near-fatal results, how can finally accepting facts and learning to live life as well as possible be considered giving up hope? Saying "Life sucks, poor me, today I'm finally going to cut my own f***ing throat..." -- THAT is giving up hope. See the difference? Probably not. Never mind. It's not something worth arguing about. People get it or they don't.

I am speaking from personal experience. You're saying it lasts forever - and it doesn't have to. You can't tell me that you or anyone else on this thread has tried EVERY medication or method. I'm hardly being simplistic. And don't talk to me like I don't know what I'm talking about - I'm probably twice as old as you (or more) and have lived my entire life with issues. I'm not saying my life is perfect and I'm always happy - I'm saying the acute and clinical cases can be eased. I've seen a LOT of advancement in this area in my lifetime.
And I think your theory of encouragement making them feel like failures is totally bullsh&t.

Go back and re-read my original thread - if anything, I'm telling them there is hope as new advancements are being made all the time and that from what I've seen of them, they're VERY worthy people who have a lot to contribute - where do you get that indicates they're failures?? :rolleyes: :crazy:

dawsongirl
06-05-2005, 02:04 AM
It's too bad a lot of you guys are too young to take a drug like Paxil, because it really does work well for anxiety. I don't know how well it does for depression though, because I still get depressed.

dawsongirl
06-05-2005, 02:08 AM
Anyways, instead of Social anxiety where you get really nervous and whatever around people or social situations, but with GAD you just get nervous or worry in general. Like I could be just alone in my house with no one around I'll start worrying or get nervous about upcoming things in my life.


That's pretty much me in a nutshell. I may have had a little SAD because I wouldn't even go to a store by myself because I didn't like having to approach the clerk to pay for the stuff. Now it's no big deal at all.

dawsongirl
06-05-2005, 02:10 AM
I take Valerian Root because I don't want to be on a daily med since I already take daily meds for BP and high cholesterol. Thanks to my family genes. I do think from time to time about getting on something mild for my depression and anxiety, but I try to tough it out. Maybye that is not the best thing, but I have been suffering w this since I was 15 or so and I am now going on 42,so I guess I have learned to adapt.

There's lots of different doses of drugs, so if you ever wanted to try, just tell the doctor to put you on the lowest abd see if it works. I know with Paxil, it comes in 10mg, 20mg, and 40mg. They usually start you out at 10 and then bump you up to 20 if need be.

Hollow
06-05-2005, 06:53 AM
There's lots of different doses of drugs, so if you ever wanted to try, just tell the doctor to put you on the lowest abd see if it works. I know with Paxil, it comes in 10mg, 20mg, and 40mg. They usually start you out at 10 and then bump you up to 20 if need be.
holy god, 40mg? i took 10 and it made me really dizzy and almost lose consciousness every time i stood up. before that i took 20 and it was worse of course. it made me pass out.

i used to think losing consciousness over it was fun until i almost fainted just after i answered the door. it was my brother's friend and his dad, so i turned around to go get my brother and everything went black, i wasn't consciously aware of any of my surroundings, then after a few seconds i could start to see again and i heard one of them (i wasn't awake enough to know which one) say "are you ok?" and i said yeah, i'm just dizzy. i realized i'd been walking slowly and clumsily and if i'd gone any further i would have tripped on something. it made me realize it could happen in public, around other people.

my psychiatrist says i can try to wean off my current medication (lexapro) now because i'm sick of taking drugs and probably don't need them, and they're so addictive and dangerous. i've been taking antidepressants for so long i don't even know whether they're making a difference. i don't really get it, like if i'm just feeling sad one day should i inform my doctor? cause if it's supposed to make you stop feeling sad for no reason in particular then no i really don't know if it's been doing a damn thing. whenever a very small negative thing happens to me it makes everything crash down and i start crying over what a hopeless stupid worthless bitch i am. i cry almost every day over one thing or another and most of the time it's because of that, and just feeling like ****. since i was five or six years old i've always been getting this severe, unexplainable and unbearable particular feeling of sadness. i summed it up last year so i'll just post it again.

i cant stand anything in life, the most sad and the most happy things are what depress me most. everything, virtually everything i even think about depresses me. if i try to consider anything object or situation, it just depresses me. the :) and the :( make me sad by looking at them. when something good happens to me it makes me feel sad and hopeless, and if something bad happens the same thing applies. i just want to escape life but the thought of dying depresses me. then i wish there was no existence and i just frustrate myself. it all has to do with the fact that nothing will last forever. which makes no sense.

the :( thing makes me feel sorry for it. even though it's just pixels put together. but it's kind because the feeling that the smiley shows is real. as for :), it's hard to explain. i think images that indicate happiness make me even sadder. last year me and "alaska boy" were settling things we'd been fighting over, and he posted a bunch of smileys at the end of his post where he apologized, and it made me cry to look at them. it's like, the smiley looks so happy, and that's how the world should be, but there won't always be happiness... or something... damnit, nevermind. i cannot explain it.

dawsongirl
06-05-2005, 09:22 PM
holy god, 40mg? i took 10 and it made me really dizzy and almost lose consciousness every time i stood up. before that i took 20 and it was worse of course. it made me pass out.

i used to think losing consciousness over it was fun until i almost fainted just after i answered the door. it was my brother's friend and his dad, so i turned around to go get my brother and everything went black, i wasn't consciously aware of any of my surroundings, then after a few seconds i could start to see again and i heard one of them (i wasn't awake enough to know which one) say "are you ok?" and i said yeah, i'm just dizzy. i realized i'd been walking slowly and clumsily and if i'd gone any further i would have tripped on something. it made me realize it could happen in public, around other people.

my psychiatrist says i can try to wean off my current medication (lexapro) now because i'm sick of taking drugs and probably don't need them, and they're so addictive and dangerous. i've been taking antidepressants for so long i don't even know whether they're making a difference. i don't really get it, like if i'm just feeling sad one day should i inform my doctor? cause if it's supposed to make you stop feeling sad for no reason in particular then no i really don't know if it's been doing a damn thing. whenever a very small negative thing happens to me it makes everything crash down and i start crying over what a hopeless stupid worthless bitch i am. i cry almost every day over one thing or another and most of the time it's because of that, and just feeling like ****. since i was five or six years old i've always been getting this severe, unexplainable and unbearable particular feeling of sadness. i summed it up last year so i'll just post it again.



the :( thing makes me feel sorry for it. even though it's just pixels put together. but it's kind because the feeling that the smiley shows is real. as for :), it's hard to explain. i think images that indicate happiness make me even sadder. last year me and "alaska boy" were settling things we'd been fighting over, and he posted a bunch of smileys at the end of his post where he apologized, and it made me cry to look at them. it's like, the smiley looks so happy, and that's how the world should be, but there won't always be happiness... or something... damnit, nevermind. i cannot explain it.

I don't know how much sadness it's supposed to take away or how happy it's supposed to make you, but if you're not happy with the results, then yeah, stop taking it. Less money and you don't have to pop a pill everyday. I dunno, maybe once you get into your 20s, the drug might work better. *shrugs*

I know that even on the Paxil, I cry more. I cry about things that never used to make me cry. I feel sorry for myself and feel hopeless a lot too. Maybe that's just me getting older or maybe it's the drug. I dunno. Memorial Day, we were standing at my grandfather's grave and my mom got teary-eyed and then I started crying. I didn't even cry when he died, but I did 14 years later. O_o

rusyd
06-05-2005, 10:18 PM
There's lots of different doses of drugs, so if you ever wanted to try, just tell the doctor to put you on the lowest abd see if it works. I know with Paxil, it comes in 10mg, 20mg, and 40mg. They usually start you out at 10 and then bump you up to 20 if need be.

I was on Paxil about 10 years ago and it helped. Maybye I will ask my MD for 10mg dose. Thanks for the info dawsongirl. :)

swedeace
06-06-2005, 12:26 PM
Wow! So much reading to do. I need to catch up, since I wasn't online at all on Sunday!

I will print everything, make comments, and post within the next couple of days. Thanks to everyone's insightful info and help! It really helps me a lot! :wave: